Ok looking into my first pistol. I have only shot a Desert Eagle, I believe .45, and had a longer barrel my friends uncle said. I don't know really anything about them other than I loved the power and immense kick. I'm a go big or go home kinda guy but also have a budget. I really don't know anything about em. I want something with definite killing power due to it will be for protection of my family. I will most likely carry it every now and then with a permit but do not care about size or weight issue as long as i holster it in some way. I'm not saying I want a mess and a big hole in them but yeah. You guys are the experts, what do I need?